Hubris
To write is something I love doing, and to share my thoughts even more so. I consider the blog to be a legacy that I will and am giving Ishan and Simonne. I have written and not shared for sometime now, kind of at odds with the basic idea behind the blog. I would not disclose the subject written on but the fact that I have not shared those writings got me thinking. Maybe it’s my hubris; can it be that I am so arrogant of the clarity of my thoughts and the nature of a logical thought process that I think that this is it ?
It’s not a question of secrecy. All individuals carry secrets, there are different reasons why but generally it is the sense of shame or guilt. Let me clarify- actions contrary to the value system that is followed by one will generate the sense of guilt and shame. I have not felt guilt or shame for not sharing a handful of articles and as such could be ruled out as the reason for me.
Envy ? Anger ? Hope ? i could take any emotional construct and still not be able to pin point the reason for my hubris as one specific thing. It is all emotional constructs. I learned this simple key from Star Wars. Was watching the animated “Clone wars” for those that are interested. Realised a very simple construct. What you avoid you give life too. So when one avoids a feeling of envy for example you actually give it life and will feel jealous. One cannot avoid the nature of one’s feelings and emotions. What one can do is accept them for what they are. They are part of you and will always be; acting upon them is a choice one has to make.
Very few know, some act like they do; for a short while I felt like I did.
C
Never thought of it that way before. It's got more significance now. We all harbor stories, thoughts that either make us laugh or cry. Sometimes it's just that we are not convinced that it could benefit another in some ways. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteVery true, an attempt to control any emotion would give life to it. I don't know why did you avoid sharing your blogs, but all of them deserve a share and are to be read by the reader like me who gets thread to start writing his or her own. Ofcourse I don't share mine coz sometimes I feel I need more reading than writing🤪
ReplyDeleteQuite an interesting aspect of looking at things.
ReplyDeleteHubris - nice word.. as meditation masters say, don't hold on to any feelings or emotions or thoughts- let them come and go... the best way to be, albeit , difficult at times.
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