Who am I ? Part 2

There is no way for me to define my very existence on the basis of what I do. What I do is a response to external stimuli. I could or could not conform to what is true to the expectations at that particular instance in time. One’s existence cannot be the response to stimuli or the lack of it; nor can it be on the basis of some arbitrary equation that is being solved in one’s brain based on electrical and chemical stimulus. Electrical and chemical stimulus in the brain are the result of some initial input and as such are still external to who you are.  One is not the summation of some random atoms that behave in some predictable manner based on predictable or non predictable input stimuli. My existence is also not my purpose or rather my purpose in life does not define who i actually am. My purpose continues to be a measure of my behaviour to external and internal stimuli. My purpose is not the real me. 

Can I define my existence by equating it to my consciousness? I am not quite sure ; even today there are differences in how consciousness is defined in various dictionaries and by the point of view. Anyhow if I can define consciousness would I be able to define my existence ? A new rabbit hole to explore. We have reached the rabbit hole known as the Mind-Body problem. It is a debate concerning the relationship of the mind to the body. Where the mind is considered to be though and consciousness that runs in the machine called the body. It’s a rabbit hole left to explore on some other day. (Btw very few have tried exploring it and even less so been able to explain it in simple terms to the masses. The ones that did find themselves on different pages of a never ending book with no way to agree or disagree with the other explanations) The rabbit hole aside; if we were to assume that consciousness is similar to the self there arises a new problem. The one of sleep - where do you go when you sleep ?  The psychologist or student of psychology might say the word “subconscious” but then the definition of consciousness, subconscious etc that the student or the psychologist use is quite different to the one I have for consciousness.

I am nowhere closer to answering the original question; in fact there are tons more that have given birth to themselves. (This is what I like about deep thought - the tunnels never end, they open up to great amphitheaters for a moment and then you find another tunnel to go further and the process continues until you reach the core fundamental truth.) 

I can however put forth an hypothesis- I am an expression of an idea that wants to experience its self.

More on the hypothesis on another day. 

C